Antonyms of Synonyms

No one thinks i am as strong as i know i am.  Why do people always second guess me and tell me all of the things i have to live for and everything i am good at (even when i am not).  Why is there always someone looking over my shoulder pointing out all of the things i am doing, both right and wrong.  Who are THEY to tell me who I am.  Who am I to listen!?  What...does make me...me?  I stand in a crowd and feel alone.  I stand alone and feel claustrophobic.  I am hot when you are cold and cold when you are hot.  I am the winter to your summer and the fall to your spring.  I cry when you laugh and i am the frown to your smile.  Why do i feel like i am the Antonym of your life?