Just Shut the Whole Thing Down

Maybe i should just leave.  Leave my phone and just take off.  I think Sage and i could get by on little to nothing a week.  Where would we go though?  How far do i have to go to out run who i am?  Is that even possible?  Maybe there is no running involved and you just force yourself to forget yourself.  Maybe i should just go crazy,  but how does one go about becoming crazy?  Are their certain steps you take?  And if so,  who wrote them down because everyone who knows the correct steps are actually crazy themselves.  I would love to push the envelope between sanity and insanity.  I wonder how close to the line i could get.  Please don't use me in an attempt to make yourself feel better...  Am i really him?  Am i that guy?  Is that me?  I want to yell.  I want to scream at the top of my lungs.  I want to break something.  I want to cry.  I want to die.  I want friends.  I don't really.  I will drink these problems away.  I wont touch the stuff.  Who am I?!  What...am i?  My boots are so heavy.  Please ignore the man behind the curtain.  I...am the man behind the curtain controlling the Wizard of Oz whose power is controlling me.  So wait,  who was controlling who again?  Is there control?  Just shut the whole thing down...